No, what you think is important, what you think is your life, who you think you are... no. You forgot again. This is important: Transformation. Recovery. Miracles. This is your life: Fellowship. Celebration. Endless opportunity to grow closer to others and the universe. This is who you are: Part of something big and subtle and powerful and kind and wonderful and life-saving and important. This. This is what you are and you just forgot for a little while again, but that's okay I'll always try and help you remember. You're looking at the night. Don't look at the night. Look at the stars. See? It's this. This."

Your vision will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.
Carl G. Jung

Another day in March

March on, march, march..... on going to Spring. Is Spring here. Hopefully. Need the sun, need some ocean beach trip, need a trip. Just want to be gone to explore some site that I haven't been to before. Awake in the morning with some ideas and thoughts of exploring. Go to the beach. walk in the sand rainy or sunny. Doesn't matter really. See some art. Eat some good food. Read, watch the sun set. Breathe. Sounds like vacation to me.

Birthdays and such

Today was/is the birthday of one of my sisters. It has been such a short while that she has been gone. Just over a year and such. I miss her every day it seems. Her laughter, joy, anger, love. I was lucky to have had so much time with her love actually. I remember the fun, the touch, the sharing. There is no other connection that offers such acceptance.

As the days, the months, the years go by I want to remember that I have this opportunity to be here and experience the joy. Remember to have gratitude for what I have. Its so easy for me to get caught up in what I don't have, the wishes, the hurt and resentment. It eats away my joy. The sun is out today and I will enjoy the warmth. I will have a day to remember my sister.

Start of the weekend

This is the beginning of a three day weekend and all I can think of is working. Well not the day job but all the things I want to accomplish around my house. Woke up early, not unusual, thinking about closets and files and shopping.... Ugh what happened to relaxing and just hanging out. I am going to have to resist all the organizing thoughts and replace them with the sitting and watching movies, or better yet some type of creative activity. I wanted to go to the coast but its suppose to rain all weekend. It can be fun during a storm, watching the sea become rough and the rain pelting down. I prefer watching from a rented house with friends and a fire. Traveling around in the car isn't as much fun.Fun is what I need.

So I have begun to get back to my creative self. Lost it for awhile. To occupied with other things. Career - ha - and other life adventures. Its time to delve back into the paints, the writing, the fun. I am going to do something every week. Starting out small so that I can enjoy it without beating myself up for not being able to keep up. This will bring the fun. It usually does. It will. It is amazing how much better I understand life when being creative. So the three day weekend gives me some time and ample opportunity to begin. Well I am cleaning out the files first.....

Wednesday Wandering -Taking a chance

Oh to be able to do even some of these things. Not that I could even attempt them. Just want to feel like I could take the risk. To get out of this box. I am just wandering on Wednesday as usual. Thanks to a fellow blogger for the post.

The brightness in the winter dark

Such joy to be able to see a new light. The days themselves are getting longer. I notice each and every moment that is added each day. The light attracts me. The sun shining as the clouds roll by. It is cold here, the sky is blue but I enjoy it all by looking out the window. I was able to see the light yesterday while looking into my granddaughters face. Oh such new light.

I am open to any light really. Bring it on! I want to see the sun, feel the warmth on my face and being. This light is bright. It will bring warmth for the years to come.